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[10 Feb 2006|06:53pm] Wow. Livejournal's wicked different... post comment

[08 Jul 2005|10:59pm] I LOVE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! post comment

A note to all... [08 Jul 2005|12:41pm] post comment

[07 Jul 2005|08:02pm] I really thought he loved me. He signed off on me. I love him so much... Why does he do this to me. Why? He really doesn't care. He really doesnt. 1 comment|post comment

Schoooooool [23 Jun 2005|10:33am] [ mood | awake ] I want my cupcake. NOWWWWW!!!! Okay... So I can't have it. Melissa is looking at ugly boys online. Teh Ghey. I'm hungry and I have gym next. =]Free class I get to sit outside and it is very nice out. I forgot my book. Randy will probably be outside wrestling again anyways... Gah. <3 Felisha 2 comments|post comment

[22 Jun 2005|10:27am] Gah. Home from Florida. I don't like this thing. post comment

[10 Jun 2005|09:35am] Hah. <3 Gah. Anywho. My computer at home is completely fucked. FUCKED. It won't even turn on anymore. It's brand fucking new too. Just bought that piece of shit last year. Whatever. I'm leaving for Florida tomorrow. =] =] Peace. 3 comments|post comment

[06 Jun 2005|12:23pm] My computer is so fucked up. I can't get on. I'm barely typing this right now. It freezes every 2 seconds. gah. post comment

School is maaaaad lame. [06 Jun 2005|10:56am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Changes - Tupac ] In school right now. Robinson is out. No pizza party. I'm playing Tupac. <3 post comment

[03 Jun 2005|04:37pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Danielle singing John Jacob Jingle Heimerrrrrr Smith ] Journalism is boring now... All I've been doing is signing yearbooks and whatnot... I miss Aaron. I wanna see him. Gah. I keep sticking my finger in Danielle's bum and looking up her skirt. I like it. =] We're all taking pictures now. I look like shit... Everyone here seemed to like my picture in my userinfo. A black boy hit on me in the hallway. O_o Heh. <3 Felisha 1 comment|post comment

I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed, please be impressed... [01 Jun 2005|03:36pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | The silence of my empty fucking house... ] As much as I don't want to hear it... or believe it... It's true. Things are falling apart. Gah. I don't know what to do. I try so hard... I can never please him. He's never happy anymore. I wish he was like he used to be. I'm always depressed and he makes it worse. I need to be around happy and cheerful people. I can't wait for tomorrow night. Cafe Arpeggio. =] Coffee. Open Mic night. Anthony playing. Hopefully Chelsea shows. I miss her. I can't wait for school to be out. I want the summer to be good... but fly by. Driving school in September. I need time to myself. Everything has been about everyone else lately... I just want everything back to the way it was before. I care way too much about everyone else. -sigh- I've been feeling so depressed lately. Aaron doesn't understand... No one does. ♥ Felisha 2 comments|post comment

[31 May 2005|06:59pm] [ mood | crushed ] I can't take it anymore. I get treated like complete shit. He really makes me feel like I don't want to live anymore. He really makes me feel like killing myself. I get put down so much. Yelled at. Treated like I'm no one special to him. Pushed around.... I can't deal with it anymore. I have to do something... I just don't know what... 2 comments|post comment

[31 May 2005|03:19pm] 1) First Grade Teacher: Mrs Pina... 2) Last word you said: "bye" 3) Last song you sang: welcome to my life... pathetic. 4) Last person you hugged: zach 5) Last thing you laughed at: two guys not knowing how to buttfuck... (light cigarettes of eachothers.) 6) Last time you seriously said "I Love You": this morning... 7) Last time you cried: last night 8) What's in your CD player: tales from the lotus pod 9) What colour socks are you wearing: white? 10) What's under your bed: lots of cat hair? 11) What time did you wake up today: 7 12) Current taste: frosty from wendy's =] 13) Current hair: errr... brown and black. up in a bun. i'ma lazy fuck 14) Current clothes: korn shirt and black jogging pants 15) Current annoyance: the worst fucking headache 16) Current longing: to see my boyfriend... 17) Current desktop picture: the one it came with... 18) Current worry: being all alone... 19) Current hate: my computer chair. it hurts my asshole. 20) Story behind your LJ username: my favorite rhcp song. i've had this lj for a while. too lazy to make a new one... 21) Current favourite article of clothing: my black jogging pants or my bam shirt... 22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex: hair 22) Favourite physical feature of the same sex: pussy? 23) Last CD that you bought: the calm 24) Favourite place to be: buttonwood park with only a few of my friends during the summer. 25) Least favourite place: home 26) Time you wake up in the morning: 7 ... 10 on weekends... but not lately. 27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: the oboe 28) Favourite color: orange or purple 29) Do you believe in an afterlife: i believe in the possibility of an afterlife 30) How tall are you: 5'3'' i think 31) Current favourite word/saying: butt 32) Favourite book: the perks of being a wallflower 33) Favourite season: summer 34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: ... =x 35) Favourite day: fridays are always good... 36) Where do you want to go: currently? outside. 37) What is your career going to be like: exciting... 39) What kind of car will you have: the green mustang on zach's street. 40) Type a line you remember from any book: "I just listened to the music, and breathed in the day, and remembered things. Things like walking around the neighborhood and looking at the houses and the lawns and the colorful trees and having that be enough." 41) A random lyric: "grotesque i'm a walkin body bag, and when it all heals, i pick the scabs..." 42) Identify some things surrounding your computer: rolling papers, empty wendy's bag, my phone, a window, cigarettes, a lighter, and eclipse mints. ... i like surveys. they pass the time. --------------------------------------------- have you ever lost control of you bladder? no? what is your favorite movie? the notebook or mean creek are you bored with this quiz already? kinda... do you mind me asking these questions? who are you? do you ever slash yourself up? yes if so, do you think you are a little bit retarded? all the time dammit. do you like bingo? maybe when i'm older... what kind of phone do you have? a sexy one? what is your favorite cartoon? fairly odd parents tv show? pimp my ride, room raiders, or viva la bam... movie? you stupid fuck you already asked this... do you drink alcohol? my boyfriend doesn't allow me to... =[ do you smoke? yup. pot? nah. not anymore. do you take drugs? depends... were you picked on in school? never... do you listen to people? if it's important... do people laugh at you? when i do stupid shit yea. do you value your life? sometimes. do you have friends that you don't see anymore? many... if so, do you miss them terribly? yes... =\ do you spend your days sitting in front of a computer? not really. do you drink coke? i didn't know i could drink that... red bull? yea. what's your FAVORITE drink? corona... do you paint your toenails? in the summer... where do you live? new bedford. how's the crime rate where you live? decent. Big W, Kmart, or Target? ... big W? ... errr. none? McDonald's, Hungry Jacks, or KFC? HUNGRY JACKS<3<3 ... I miss seattle... do you partake in sexual acts with the opposite sex? almost every weekend. =] the same sex? no ... kinda. both? kinda... speed, heroin, coke, ecstacy, or prescription pils? fuck that shit. snort, eat, inject, shelve, or drink? err no? other? NO DAMMIT do you like office supllies? i like pennies... do you have post its, paperclips, thumbtacks handy? yes i do permanent markers? i love the smell.. coffee or tea? i like coffee... do you use paper towels? to wipe my ass. i like it rough... have you ever lost control of you bladder? DAMMIT YOU ALREADY ASKED THIS. do you think this survey is getting a bit stupid? you're stupid. benson & hedges, peter jackson, or longbeach? wtf is that? nokia, sony ericson, motorola, or kyocera? sony. 50 or 100? 50 bait or tackle? i don't fish. sedan, station wagon, van, 4WD or coupe? coupe MSI, COF, of SOAD? all three. do you like acronyms? i hate that shit. how good is your spelling? decent. how many questions are in this survey? i don't fuckin know do you think there are too many? bring it bitch. do you believe in ghosts? yea do you believe in god? depends. what's your opinion on the Corby thing? who the fuck is corby? left wing or right wing? rigeft who is your mobile phone provider? i'm poor. what's your grandmother's name? i like to dance... do you collect anything? if so, what? used tissues and soiled undergarmets. from 1 to 5 (1 being bad) how do you rate this survey? 1 why? i just don't like it. do you love me? i don't know you.... but if you fuck me yes. do you gamble? i'm 15... do you wear your pajamas all day? if i'm home. when was the last time you had a shower? 15 minutes ago... brushed your hair? 3 days ago. have you ever woken up and not known where you were? yes. do you have any pets? yes when is this survey going to end? when i boot this piece of shit computer out the window... if you could change the color of the sky, would you? yes? what scares you? being alone. ever been in a hospital? what for? yes. 3 times.... =x do you have any sort of eating disorder? kinda. i starve myself for 2 days then eat a lot... why don't you just have a big mac? ew. does the truth hurt? yes/ ever done anything stupid?yes. ever loved someone who doesn't love you? yes. my mom. vice versa? yes. do you know renee? yes. yes i do. ben? yes. anyone by those names? yes. briefly tell me about them: well... renee used to hang out with shay and ben smokes a lot of pot and's jewish. tomato, barbecue, chili, or sweet chili? tomato is your house tidy? tidy?... -bows head in disappointment- are you a moron? maybe are you super intelligent? maybe what do you see when you turn to the left? a clock telling me that i've wasted 20 minutes of my life doing this. the right? an open window reminding me that there is so much shit i could be doing instead of this. i beg your pardon? fuck you. do you like candles? only if i can set you on fire with them... if so, what type? the ones that i tell you to smell right before i burn you. whats your emotion right now? pissed off ... what era do you like? ya mothers era. what's the time? 6:58 ... thank god. post comment

[30 May 2005|11:08am] [ mood | good ] [ music | FATA - Autumn's Monologue ] Getting ready to go to Aaron's. Just smoked my last cigarette. Gah. I hope Aaron has money because I don't. I need cigarettes badly. My stomach hurts. I'm wearing a tanktop and flip-flops. It's not too comfy. I'm changing. My make-up is too light for my skin. Damn mom. She got me foundation that's like... white. It looks like white paint. Hell yeah. WBRU is playing Evanescence. mmmm. Amy Lee... -creams self- It's 11:00... I think I should finish getting ready. Laterrr. post comment

[19 Apr 2005|07:30am] [ mood | okay ] [ music | nosferatu ] Hah wow... Haven't used LiveJournal in a long time. All of my entries were friends only. =\ I'm too lazy to delete all of them. Gah. Bye post comment

i'll drop her off if you give me some lobster... [05 Sep 2004|10:04pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | the used ] i've been feeling so horrible lately. i keep lashing out on people for no apparent reason. and it's just like... random bad moods that come out of absolutely nowhere. i don't know what's up with me. for some reason i keep flipping out on justin. i don't mean to. at all. as i said... i get these random bad moods and then i just get pissy and whatnot. i just typed a long paragraph but deleted it. it wasn't anything important really. actually. i don't even know why i deleted it. i don't get myself. justin tells me i am the most confusing girl in the world. i agree. i confuse myself. alot. i've noticed mostly every line i've typed starts with "i"... i can't wait for school. this has been the most boring summer of my life. my cats are flying around the house chasing eachother and it's pissing me off. they keep running and jumping on me. it hurts. i think too much. i hate guys. i miss dating certain people. i get jealous a lot. i whine too much. i'm sick of typing. 3 comments|post comment

[04 Sep 2004|03:37pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | darkness - twiztid ] Okay. I don't really even use this that often. I'll update when something good actually happens. 1 comment|post comment

i love marijuana [14 Aug 2004|01:26am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | .. myself thinking outloud ] so today was cool i guess. went to the mall and chilled for a little while. then justin came... went to barnes and nobles. it was lightly drizzling outside... so i made him go to the woods because i haven't been there in a while. it POURED. we were soaked. completely. felt like complete crap for about a half an hour or so... and i do again right now. -sigh- people came... went to see white castle. it was pretty good. my mom brought justin home... and on the way to my house my mom drove into a HUGE pothole and i feel like i have whiplash or whatever. damn friday the 13th. ---------------------------- Survey thing. Bold everything that is true. 1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE!" 2. You watched the Pound Puppies. 3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air." (In west Philadelphia born and raised..) 4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish. 5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own. 6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls. 7. You know that "WHOA" comes from Joey on Blossom. 8. Two words: M.C. Hammer ... 9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock." 10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars. 11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales" 12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.... 13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head. 14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen. 15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. ((i used to like that game alot because everyone would die of diseases)) 16. You played the game "MASH" (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter Shack, House). 17. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it. 18. L.A. Gear 19. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten. ... 20. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books. 21. you know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF" 22. You wanted to be a Goonie! 23. You ever wore flourescent clothing. and tie dye too! 24. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off. 25. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.... 26. You took lunch boxes to school 27. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets. 28. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after every sentence. 29. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts. 30. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band 31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up. 32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets. 33. You owned a pair of jelly sandals 34. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?" 35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!" 36. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates. 37. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide. 38. You have ever played with a Skip-It. 39. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's. 40. You've gone through this list occasionally saying "totally awesome." 41. You remember Popples. 42. "Don't worry, be happy." 43. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights. 44. You wore socks scrunched down.. 45. "Miss MARY MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK" 46. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players. 47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies. 48. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!" 49. You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little Ponies 50. You thought Doogie Howser was hot. 51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac. 52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool. 53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell," the ORIGINAL class. 54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME This survey was sad. post comment

[10 Aug 2004|10:42pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | tiggy - freckles ] my mom bought chicken on a stick. -shiver- it's terrible. not one trace of chicken in the entire thing. ...anyways. me and chris are together... again. he makes me happy ♥ =] =] i really have nothing more to say. laterrr <3 7 comments|post comment

[09 Aug 2004|02:43pm] i'm eating a microwave pizza. it's the worst thing i've ever eaten. ever. 4 comments|post comment

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